A loner longing for the cadence of her last breath

I am so glad that Nightwish got a new female singer, I personally like the sound of the new songs better than the old one's with the woman with the phantom of the opera high pitched voice.

Nothing new today that wasn't new yesterday. All the same old song and dance. That's a song.

Song Lyrics:
Cadence of Her Last Breath by Nightwish (THE BEST BAND EVER)

No pain in sight, you're like perfection

Ugh. This day went from worse to the day from H-e-double freaking hockey sticks. If there were an escape button to life today I would've punched it through the wall or desk or keyboard or wherever the F*** it would be. This day was undoubtedly the worst ever. First my boyfriend jokes about having a tumor, who the f*** does that? And then I realize I have a poopload of stuff to finish for creative writing including my stinken jumble story which I have yet to even begin THINKING ABOUT, and I have to do another prompt and those prompts are hard as concrete no better yet, they are hard as steel. And I got a little "friend" today who is only supposed to visit once a month but he decided he wanted to come twice this month because he's just a jerk like that, and now I have to call my "Special" doctor to ask if that's supposed to happen and nobody at hershey is answering their frigging phones and there's like fifty people who want to borrow my dresses for sno-ball which I'm not even going to and ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and yeah, that was all one really huge run on sentence and I'm too frigging stressed out to even care.

Lyrics:
Sober by Pink (again)

All eyes on me, center of the ring, just like a circus

I love that song. Its the one song that saves me from having all the Thoroughly Modern Millie songs stuck in my head. I used to love the songs and now its like OH MY GOD I have to sing that AGAIN???!?!?!?!? Don't get me wrong, I thoroughly (ugh thoroughly...that word is a huge part of my vocabulary as of late) enjoy every practice. I have never been thrilled that there wasn't practice anyday. When she only wants certain people in a scene and I'm not one of them, I'm actually disappointed. I have alot of fun with it. But yeah, anyway, "Circus" by Britney Spears (yes, I listen to Britney Spears, bite me) is the one song I don't mind having stuck in my head all day. I randomly start dancing to it if its stuck in my head.

"There's only two types of people in the world, the ones that entertain and the ones that observe
well, baby I'm a put on a show kind of girl, don't like the back seat, I gotta be first.
I'm like the ringleader, i call the shots.
I'm like a firecracker, I make it hot.
When i put on a show, I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break
I'm like a performer, the dancefloor is my stage.
Better be ready, hope you feel the same
All eyes on me, center of the ring, just like a circus
When I crack the whip everybody gonna trip, just like a circus
Don't stand there watching me, follow me, show me what you can do
Everybody let go we can make a dance floor, just like a cicus"


If you couldn't tell already
Song Lyrics:
>CIRCUS by Britney Spears

When the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home

I got to witness a lover's quarel today in chemistry. The sad thing was that was the highlight of my day. I am a loser. I slept through history, there has yet to be a day that I haven't atleast slept through part of it. Mrs.Kriston flipped on Steph today for reading in class and I always read in that class, so i quickly shut my book and pretended to be working on the worksheet in front of me even though I already had the worksheet finished. I am considering taking spanish 3 and 4 together next year. I'll take one online and the other in school, i have to talk to Darrup about that.


Song Lyrics:
"Full Moon" by The Black Ghosts

The quiet scares me because it screams the truth.

Have you ever taken one of your old year books and wondered whatever became of that girl in second grade that you never saw again? Well, the wonders of myspace never cease to amaze me. It has a way of making old friends become friends again but it also has the knack of forcing someone's unwanted company on you. But that's where this nifty little "Block this user" button comes in! Anyway, I was looking up Natasha Young, any of you people from Fredericksburg Elementary remember her? She like disappeared from the face of the earth. Well, i found her on myspace. Oh my gosh, she has gotten so pretty and she is really thin. The only way i knew it was her was from her face. She still has the same face as she did in that second grade picture, but she's just really really pretty. Anyway, after I discovered that I could find people this way I began looking up everyone in my year book that I didn't ever see again after elementary school. I found my book buddie, Seneca (i hated her, she was a snooty little first grader at the time), she still looks the same. and I found Britney Ealy, I couldn't stand that chick, she still looks exactly the same and hasn't grown or matured an inch.

That was the only exciting thing I did all weekend. I have a very sad life.

Song Lyrics:
"Sober" by Pink

Take all my pieces of doubt and let me be what's underneath

Brendon's great grandmother fell, he went to see her today. I hope she's alright, I've already been through that. My great grandmother passed away this summer. It was hard. I hope she's alright though.

So I just read Deavan's character writing post. That was wow...like take your breath away wow. She's really good!

I'm not going to Sno-ball, no matter what anyone says. I'm saving out for Prom. I can not afford a dress at the moment but I start working in april, so I should be able to buy a dress for prom. Yes, my parents are now making me pay for my own dresses, shoes and my hair appointment when it comes to a dance. A bunch of us are thinking of getting a limo this year because it's the last year for the Seniors in "us" and the rest of "us" to do something crazy together. (All of us being in musical together probably classified as crazy. If you had any idea how many times we've ticked off Alyssa Fellows already you'd know why.) But yea, no Sno-ball for little Erin. It seems like alot of people aren't going. Probably saving out for Prom like me.

Oh well, that's enough for now.

Song Lyrics:
"Courage Is..." by The Strange Familiar

Someday I will wake up and realize I made up everything

One, two, three, four, five. Five. That is the number of E's that Were in the title of this blog. This is nuts on my first day of creative writing (Which mind you has TWO e's in the name) he gives us this crazy assignment. Writing an ESSAY of two hundred words without a single e. I have 149 words so far and it was sooooo difficult. Oh my god. I just need fifty one more words, that's another thing, you have to spell out all numbers and you can not use contractions. It's soooo hard!!!!!

Twenty nine e's in that paragraph.

Song Lyrics are From:
"Can't Be Saved" by Senses Fail.