Who are you to tell me that I am less than what I should be?

I'm a dork. And I know it. The best part about being me though, is the fact that I'm so lovable that most people see past the fact that I am pretty much the most uncool person in the school. I actually have full conversations with my teachers. I am loud, I am somewhat obnoxious at times. I try not to start drama but it follows me around like a big dark cloud and no matter what I throw at it, it won't go away.

I am a dork because I trip over my own feet, I run into doorknobs and wear the bruise for about two weeks because of my sensitive skin. I laugh at my own really REALLY bad jokes. I entertain myself by taking ridiculous pictures of myself and forwarding them to everyone in my address book. Or by taking ridiculous pictures of myself and putting them as people's cell phone backgrounds and then finding out when they finally looked at their phone they screamed, then I commence with laughing hysterically until i nearly pee or I start crying because I am laughing that hard.

I am a dork because I once screamed at my own reflection in the bathroom mirror. It was late at night, really late and I get really messed up when I'm tired. I see and hear things.

I am a dork because I was excited when I found out my braclet glowed in the dark.

I am a dork because I almost wrote glew in the dark in the above sentence.

I am a dork because I am forever obsessed with Jurassic Park. I have all the movies and read all the books. I have watched them so many times that i know all the lines and I laugh when someone dies. I give the dinosaurs voices.

I am a dork because I simply am. If I weren't a dork I'm sure I wouldn't have the friends I do and I wouldn't trade my friends for the world. I love them all in their own way.

I love Angela because she's the best freshman in the world and she's just amazing. I don't know what I'd do without her. I have never once ever been mad at her.

I love Kate because she's just so crazy and she doesn't give a dang what anyone thinks of her.

I love Eryn because she's just so amazing. And because she says NAH-thing.

I love Amanda because she's so sweet and caring and I love corrupting her mind.

I love David because he's so crazy but he so much fun to be around.

I love Lisa because she's hot. Just kidding I love Lisa because she's fun to be around.

If i kept going on and on about each person it'd taking me all day. I love all my friends.

Song Lyrics:
Mirror by Barlow Girl

I found a letter you wrote me, it still smells just like you.

So this saturday I went to orientation at hershey. I hate my job already there's like a zillion things we have to remember. Kick this for every dollar you take, click this for every win, click this for every free game, click this for every small prize/medium prize/large prize given away, push this to turn it on. Don't take these. Use this to talk to people, clean this with this. don't touch barf (THAT one I'm completely capable of remembering)don't hit people. don't hold prizes for people, call security when this happens. OHHHHHHHHHHH MY GAWWWWWWWWWWWD

My supervisor showed me the wrong way to clock in. Some supervisor.

Other than that, I made one sort of friend, if you count being the only two people who didn't know anybody else and therefore were forced to talk to each other as friendship.

Her name is Kori and she goes to Elizabethtown. We work the same hours.

My first day is next saturday. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sunday I had Wendy's because I'm a fatty. And that was the entire highlight of Sunday other than watching Australia with my mom. I totally cheered when King George killed Fletcher in the end. I hate that guy.

I was also really happy that Drover, Sarah and Nullah live happily together. :) but I still believe that Sarah and Drover should've had a kid. I believe that's a requirement in any romance.


ANOTHER TOPIC which i freaking NEED people's help on.


MY STORY TITLE!

What the crap should I call it?
I was considering just naming it after the child. But that'd be a pretty ridiculous name considering what I am naming the child and nobody'd really get it until the near end of the book when the baby is born and I don't think anybody want to read it.

So any ideas? Anything?

This is when I wish I had classes with Kate. She picked the name for Blood Choice, which is a story I wrote about werewolves. She also helped me with the main character's name in The Voice of Truth. (Nia) and she gave me the website that helped me find the main female character's name in Contradiction (Acelynn)

So yeah


OH and I need y'all's help again

I KNOW you can answer this one.

What would you like to see happen in the story?

My Sonnet

I am hearing the quick tick tock of time
While you’re nodding your head to different beats
I wish I could get in your secret mind
You smile at me; I blush, thinking you’re sweet.

Ambiguity makes me stay away
My heart is like a small bird fluttering
Every time I see you I start to sway
I wish I could stop my dense stuttering

Please don’t be a stranger anymore
I want to change us from friends to lovers.
Why won’t you tell me what you’re looking for?
Are you going to make me wait forever?

Ambiguity makes people greedy
Until the waiting has lost its meaning

Erin Howie

Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my pokerface p-p-p-p-p-p-pokerface

Angela's version of the song is alot better than the real one. "Can't eat my, can't eat, all the sh*t all over my boogerface!"

I love Angela. So here's another picture of me. I love Lauren's face here, she looks like I'm raping her. Are we allowed to say rape on these blogs? Well I just did so we'll have to wait and see. See, I'm glad that my hair has grown back out. And alright, I'll admit, I look semi-cute in this picture, even though I'm in my throughly modern millie dress.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww sh*t and D***it, when, where and why Erin uses them

Me and Eryn were discussing my cussing habits and yes, I actual have a habit.

This is how it goes down:

Aw Sh*t
when: I use this when something has happened that I could control or because I did something wrong.

Where: Usually in Trigonometry class when I can't get a problem, everyone else is quiet and then all of a sudden you'll hear me "AW sh*t!!" I also, rarely, but use it in English and Creative writing when I either messed up a poem or I did something wrong.

Why: Because that's just how I do, son.


D***it!
When: When something happens that I cannot control or something went wrong that I couldn't control

Where: Creative Writing and English where the computers p*ss me off.

Why: Because that's just how I do, son.

I need ideas...

Things I need ideas for:

1. What should I write my sonnet about? Its been about a week since it was due and I still haven't written it. So, what should I write about? Any ideas? It can be about anything. Just give me some ideas.


2. A title for my story. Those who have read it I would prefer to give me ideas but if you haven't read it its about this girl named Alaina, a sixteen year old who gets pregnant. It would be just another teen pregnancy story if it weren't for the fact that the boy who got her pregnant is a vampire and she is now carrying the heir to the all vampire throne. Its kind of hard to explain but I'm sure even the ones who have read the story are a wee bit confused.

There are a ton of vampires in the world and at one point they lived together but they had different beliefs, one group believed that humans were merely there for them to feed off of while the other group believed in living as equals among the humans. So they seperated in to two groups, the Evangelines and the Verranians. The deal was that one day they would be one empire together again and be ruled under one person. The deal was that when the last born in either coven (Felix, Alaina's boyfriend in the Evangelines and Shevra in the Verranians) produced a child, that child would be the heir.

So now Alaina is a hot item on the vampire black market.

Just one problem,


Alaina doesn't even know Felix is a vampire



So any ideas for a title?

More Random crap thrown together disguised as a remotely significant post

Random crappish topic #5: Things I don't like about myself

There's always something a girl doesn't like about herself, whether it be the size of her jeans or her chest, there is always something. Me, on the other hand, I like my butt and I'm okay with the size of my chest, I wouldn't mind them being a little smaller but I'm okay with the size. The things I don't like about myself are odd ones.

1. I don't like my eyes.
I've heard from half a million people that they wish they had the shade of brown I do, the deep brown, almost black color. But I've never liked them. I find green eyes really attractive on boys, as well as brown. Like Brendon's eyes, you just have to really look into them the way I do and you'd see he has gorgeous eyes.
Every girl in my stories either has blue or green eyes. I have never written about a brown eyed girl and only once have I written about a red head.

2. I hate my legs absolutely hate them

a. They're fat
b. they bruise and scratch up easily
c. my knees are always a weird color really dark pink or red, they're weird
d. they are so FREAKING PALE
3. My stomach
Hate it. Its too fat

4. Thighs
I have freaking thunder thighs what more do I have to say?




Random crappish topic #6: Things I like about myself

These are even weirder than the things I don't like.
I like:

1. My tiny hands, they are sooooooo little
2. My tiny feet, again, may I repeat, they're soooooooooo little
3. My hair, I love my red hair and how its natural
4. My face, I think its pretty even if other people don't
5. My ghetto booty, seriously, the only part of me that could be black is my butt

That's really about it.

Proof that I was fat.

This is from my fifteenth birthday. Oh yeah, look at that chunky mcChunkster.

I don't believe you.

I don't believe my mother.
My dog is going to be fine
I don't believe my father.
My dog is going to be fine.
My brother's stupid anyway.
I don't believe any of them.

My dog is fine.


She's not allowed to die.

A bunch of random crap thrown together disguised as an actual post

Random crappish topic number one: Words that make you want to barf

Don't you have those kind of words? The word that definitly makes me want to blarf: Raunchy. Listen to that Raaaaaauuuunnnccchhhy. It makes me think of a pile of decaying dead babies with garlic and rotten eggs sprinkled on to of them. If you just puked a little in your mouth, its ok, I did too.

Sassafrass makes Dakotah want to barf (we had this discussion in homeroom...while that poor boy was eating) he said that sassafrass makes him think of old people and I guess old people make him want to puke. (he's a weird one that Dakotah)

Other words that make me want to barf:
Chunk
Lobes
wart

Random crappish topic number two: The way people pronounce certain words, does that tick you off too?

Two words that I can't stand the way people pronounce them:

Radiator as Rad-ee-ayt-er

Mature as Muh-too-er

I just want to punch people in the face when they say it like that. Seriously, when David was talking about his car's rad-ee-ayt-or, I just quit listening, if i hadn't I would have surely popped because he said rad-ee-ayt-or about three times in every sentence.

Random crappish topic number three: Is Erin completely ridiculous?

The answer is yes, and I know I am. I am a very weird person. Certain words make me barf and I get ticked off when people pronounce things wrong.

Random crappish topic number four: How ridiculous are the driver's permit tests nowadays?

I know its mostly just common sense that you need to pass but some of the way they word things is just ridiculous! Its like this:

If you pull up to a red light at a four way intersection and your window is partially rolled down, the radio is set to a fourteen volume, the person next to you is singing rather obnoxiously and it is a rainy day in July, what do you do?

I selected C, crap my pants.

or its like this one:

The light doesn't not have a reddish type color and it might be green and possibly yellow...which way do you turn?

I selected B, I DON'T KNOOOOOW QUIT PRESSURING ME




I'm a demented child, I was dropped on my head a couple times.

Same crap, Different day

Ugh, I am having a pretty raunchy day...ugggggggggh raunchy...that word just makes me want to throw up and I already feel like I'm going to throw up. Ugh. I have a headache. I have a stomach ache. THe only thing I've eaten is one peach ring.


I'm stressed out for obvious things and because soon we are going to be reviewing our own poems for the Kaleidascope and I'm afraid that I won't get in. My poems pretty much suck.

I hate pregnant people who think they have the right to be jerks to everyone just because they are pregnant and "emotional".

I hate everything.

Unnecessary Doubt

So, this is a me feeling sorry for myself blog. If you don't want to hear it...go away, get off my blog.

This only happened because I'm an idiot. People, including my mother, think its a love triangle. Its not. Not everyone loves each other. Two people love the same person but she can only return the love to one person. She doesn't have two hearts. I mean, sure, one is like a brother to her, but the other loves her and she loves him. They have a bond that can't be broken...but the other boy, he doesn't think so. So she...she did something stupid. She told her boyfriend what the other boy said. This is where we come to the title. She isn't doubting anything, she never will. She knows her boyfriend loves her. Its her boyfriend who doubts. Its her boyfriend who is now afraid that if he doesn't tell her he loves her enough in one day, she'll leave him for the other boy. Her boyfriend won't admit it, but she knows. She knows him better than she knows herself. She told him she doesn't have any feelings for the other boy mutiple times. He says he knows but then that doesn't explain why he's acting this way, why in every STINKEN phone call, he has to bring the whole FREAKING situation back up again when its done and over. She's afraid of what he sees when she and the other boy walk beside each other. Does he see friendship or does he visualize something more that isn't really there? How do you reverse things? How does she make things okay again and not so awkward? She told him to stop it, she told him that she only has eyes for him. Then he started asking stupid questions. "Do you think he's cute?" "Come on, I know you do." She tells him to shut up. She hopes this will just stop, it will just blow over, eventually like everything does. But will it? Will it really or will it just be a neverending vicious "WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO DATE HIM IF I'M SO HORRIBLE?" thing everytime they have a tiny baby fight over the stupid things they usually fight about?

Everything will come clear with time she supposes but she doesn't know how to handle this. She has enough stress in her life to begin with. Do you know she actually monitors what she wears when her boyfriend isn't around because she's afraid that other boy is going to mistake it as a come on to him but it isn't, NOTHING IS. She wishes she never opened her big mouth.

Its all her fault...nobody else's. Not that other boy, no one but herself.

No one's fault...but her own.

She messes up her own happiness, time and time again. She's the only person that stands in the way of her own happiness. That's pretty pathetic.


Ugh...if you read this whole thing, sorry I even posted it, i just needed to get things off my chest. I don't feel better. Where are the chocolate doughnuts? They always help me feel better.

Cha-cha-cha-changes

Oh my god, amanda's party was great. Beanbag chairs are evil by the way. Lisa, Hinkle, Ben and I were there but everyone left at eleven except me. That's when the real fun began. Hinkle let us borrow the Play station 2 for the night, so after everyone left we hooked up Singstar, which is like a karaoke game and oh my god, that was great. You actually do playback and you can screw with your voices. You can make them really high pitched so that you sound like hamsters on crack and oh my god. You have to hear some of the audio files on my phone. haha


IT
was


GREAT

Tonight is Amanda's party

Hinkle is picking me up after work. I won't get there until eight or a little later than eight. Amanda told me not to eat. Its going to be real hard to resist that yummy hospital food. mmmm....right...


Me and Amanda just made a deal. Are we actually serious? Well, it depends on what the outcome is. The deal is if/when we turn 25 and we still aren't married, we're going to go to Alabama and get married. Yup. We'll adopt kids.

Its a deal

Phhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhttttt

Ah, now I feel a little better.


SO GUESS WHAT?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!???!!?!??! I have a car! A FREAKING CAR!

My car is soooo awesome. Its a '98 red plymouth neon. Its got four doors, working air conditioning, heating, fog lights, radio, defroster. It drives amazing. The only thing that's wrong with it is it has a shaky exhaust but that can be fixed and it has a cracked brake light which I'll buy a new one. I love my car. It is perfectly aligned. It only has 113,000 miles on it. If I treat it well, which i fully intend to, i can get another good one hundred thousand miles out of that. I love my car. Its gorgeous. It's our best running car other than our suburban.

I only paid 2200 for it. It was worth every dime. I locked it up, and I don't have automatic locks, you have to push and pull down the locks yourself but i don't care. I love my car. I love it so much. This weekend, I'll take some pictures so i can put them up on here.



Oh and by the way (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE), I am a jerk, I know I am. I still feel bad, but getting a car kind of eased that a bit but other than that, I still feel really bad.

Phhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhttttt is the sound of.......something....

So now I pretty much feel like a jerk....

And I know I am. I feel terrible. I'm such a jerk. A JERK

A jerky jerkalicious jerk






A jerk

We are the angry and the desperate, the hungry and the cold

What's on Erin's playlist? I listen to the same 74-75 song playlist everyday when I get home from school. Do any of you like (Or have even heard of) some of these songs? I'll put a line from the song of some of the ones I don't think anyone knows about other than me. I'll just pick 30 random ones and see if anyone likes what I like


1.Circus by Britney Spears
2.Fingerprints by Katy Perry
3. "Give me something to return to in your heart. I fear nothing but to leave here
Without you for life" Fate by Black featuring Ana Johnson

4. Tell Me Something I Don't Know by Selena Gomez
5. Prayer of the Refugee by Rise Against(where the title of this blog comes from)
6. "I would like to reach out my hand, I may see you, I may tell you to run" Send Me On My Way by Rusted Root
7. Jai Ho by A.R. Rahman
8. In This Together by apoptygma berzerk
9."Leave me out with the waste, this is not what I do. This is the wrong kind of place to be cheating on you." 9 Crimes by Damien Rice
10. We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel
11. Our Lawyer Made Us Change The Name of This Song So We Wouldn't Get Sued by Fall Out Boy
12. Missing by Evanescence
13. I Won't Say (I'm In Love) by Susan Egan
14. Can't Smile Without You by Barry Manilow
15. "you're the new classic, you're the new PYT, stands for Paid, Young and trying everything just to touch your dreams" New Classic by Drew Seely and Selena Gomez
16. Don't Forget by Demi Lovato
17. The Take Over, the Breaks Over by Fall Out Boy
18. Sober by Pink
19. Hand of Sorrow by Within Temptations
20. I Need You by Relient K
21. Gives You Hell by All American Rejects
22. Amaranth by Nightwish
23. Honey, Honey by Amanda Seyfried
24. Broken by Lifehouse
25. Here I am by Bryan Adams
26. Right Round by Flo-rida
27. Cheesburger in Paradise by Jimmy Buffet
28. Inside the Fire by Disturbed
29. The Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
30. Don't Blink by Kenny Chesney

You're going to have to go on from another computer.

http://littleerin.blogspot.com/2009/03/we-just-touched-awkwardly-song.html. Its the we just touched awkwardly.

Here are the lyrics:

You can try to pretend
you disguise
you can try to ignore
but your hand just touched mine

yeah we just touched awkwardly
was that strange for you like it was strange for me?
we just touched awkwardly
no, i'm not going to let this go

It was like that one time
when i reached over you
and you tried to ignore
when i grazed your left boob

but we just touched awkwardly
was that strange for you like it was strange for me?
yeah we just touched awkwardly
no i'm not going to let this go!

again the url is http://littleerin.blogspot.com/2009/03/we-just-touched-awkwardly-song.html go there. I order it.

We just touched *touched* awkwardly, was that as strange for you as it was for me?

That's actually a song. Look up the "we just touched awkwardly" song on youtube. Its a real song. By Natalie. On Communitychannel. Yes, I am in fact a dork. Leave me alone.

Lets list the weird things about Erin for this blog post since I have no idea what else to talk about.

1. I sit in my shower

2. I'm terrefied of chickens, centipedes, spiders, swans and cows. There's a story behind each one if you really want to know.

3. I am fascinated by shiny objects

4. For the first five minutes after i wake up, i'm pretty much dazed and confused. It takes me awhile to figure out where I am.

5. I wake up at 1:55 a.m. every morning, it never fails, unless I have woken up before then.

6. At night, I'm afraid of my own shadow and will not go to sleep unless one of my parents are home.

7. I'm always hungry.

8. I'm pretty much always tired too. I take a cat nap every day.

9. I have senstive skin. You barely graze my arm, my entire arm turns red.

10. I'm uncordinated. I run into (and bruise myself) on doorknobs. I trip over my own feet.


Who says it like that premature as pre-muh-too-er.

Anyway, I'm done.

Song Lyrics:
We Just Touched Awkwardly song by Natalie

Don't you see? We're in this together. You and me, one on one forever.

I just recently became addicted to that song. It was the fault of a youtube video. I'll put the video up on my other blog when I get the chance.
I value other people's opinions and (here's the funny thing) I can't make decisions for MYSELF easily but I can tell a pregnant girl what to do when this that and the other thing happens and I know what to do when a friend takes news badly and hurts herself and I "always know what to do" as many people have said but its not true. Most of the things I tell people are because I have either been through their situation before or I don't really know so I just try my best to solve every problem my friends put in front of me. When it comes to my friends, (NOT ALL OF YOU, I EMPHASIZE NOT ALL OF YOU), a few of them treat as 'a convienent' friend persay. Someone to go to when the sh*t hits the fan and they don't know how to get out of the hole they dug themselves in alone and they need to come and pull them out. My mother says that I'm too sweet. That I wear my heart out on my sleeve and someday someone's going to take it and break it. What she doesn't know is that it has broken time and time again, by friends who weren't really friends and boys who don't know the meaning of love and just...I'm babbling and let you know too much of my inner workings. Pretty soon anyone who is reading this will know exactly how to destroy me, not that any of you would but I was just saying...I share too much.

Sorry, that was one huge paragraph basically about nothing. Nothing of real importance. I was going to ask you something but I forgot about it.

Song Lyrics:
In This Together by Apoptygma Berzerk. (Look it up, I promise that 1, you'll like it and 2, that i didn't make that name up)

Another question for the truthful ones

I have been having one of those bouts with...what's the word, not depression but you know, a bout with low self esteem as of late. I don't know. Maybe its because I haven't had a lot of attention as of lately...not that i care. But you know with the dog and i've had other problems at home. Problems elsewhere too. Problems everywhere. So, i don't know. But i'm not suicidal or anything, nobody panic. I'm perfectly fine. So calm down

Anyway, so, does anyone think I'm pretty? I don't get told that much, actually quite the opposite. I mean, Cierra tells me it all the time, so does Brendon but my parents don't. My sister always tells me I'm ugly, but she's my little sister, i think that's what she does. But yeah, i get told i'm ugly alot more than pretty. when i look in the mirror, it depends on the mood i'm in. sometimes, i see cute. Sometimes I don't.


I don't know.


By the way, for those of you who are actually curious, Cierra is my new preggo, i just took her in. I swear I attract pregnant girls. Cierra is actually my cousin's girlfriend and she's pregnant and she needs someone there for her. I was there for Jamie through her pregnancy, so naturally, I took her in

Aaja aaja jind shamiyaane ke taley

That means something along the lines of: Taste it, taste it, this night is honey

So would y'all answer me honestly, pretending we live in a world without feelings that could get hurt? Pretend I don't have any feelings. Does it seem like to any of you that I'm gaining weight? Answer truthfully, because i need the truth here.



After you do that, take a minute to listen to the song below. Its from Slumdog Millionaire, which won a ton of Oscar's and this song was performed LIVE at the Oscars and it won an Oscar itself. The song alone.

Jai Ho means Victory/Hallelujah

And what the girls are saying at that one part is

Dance! Dance
Now with me, you dance for today
For our day of moves
whatever problems may be
Cheers
Dance! Dance!

Jai Ho (Featuring Sukhvinder Singh, Tanvi Shah & Mahala) - A.R. Rahman

soooooooooooo glad musical is over

Reasons I'm glad its over:

I can bring my D in French up

I don't have to deal with b****y chorus moms, or one imparticular.

I don't have to put on loads of makeup

I get to sleep. THANK JESUS i get to sleep.

I can spend more time with my doggy.



Reasons I'm not glad its over:

I'll miss all those crazy times in the bandroom with Angela.

I'll miss the countless sexual references.

I'll miss my time with my musical friends, especially Ben, whom I only have one class with.

I'll miss the red mountain dew. MMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

I'll miss all the crazy half naked dancing that goes on in the girl's changing room.

I'll miss not having to go to fitness and weight training. (that was the best part)

I'll miss Lauren and all those moments where she proves she's a blonde.



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
there are more reasons i'm going to miss it instead of not missing it! WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO?!?!?!?!??!?!

So, my week has pretty much sucked

I know you all already knew this. I need six sentences to make this a blog, a blog that actually counts as a blog.

so updates:

1. last night i got a call from the vet, Jewel's seizures have relaxed into a rhythm one every four hours. She has an enlarged heart but that is most likely from having the seizures, not the cause of the seizures. She also has an underactive thyroid gland but that's just what makes her fat. So, they are saying they think its a brain tumor but I'm praying that its not because if it is we'll have to put her down and i really can't deal with that right now. No dog can replace Jewel. I'm pretty sure they are just settling on a brain tumor because that is the most often cause of seizures in dogs. That's what I'm hoping. I sent a text to everyone in my address book to pray for her last night because I know god can hear one person but if I get a ton of people to pray for her (This is me hoping everyone who said they would, did) then god would hear us ten even twenty times better. I hope he listened. I need my dog.

2. I'm about inches from walking right up to Melanie and slapping her across the face.

3. I'm tired, really tired of crying.

4. I'm tired, really tired...period.

My dog is having seizures

That's what i woke to this morning at one a.m. She had a really violent seizure at one a.m, i wasn't there to see it but i saw the aftermath, she had her eyes clenched tight and we were petting her and saying her name over and over again and she eventually opened her eyes but they were wild and it was really scary. And when i went to pet her she snapped at my hand, she didn't get me and i'm pretty sure it was just because of her being scared. We kept talking to her and eventually she came to and we worried but she got up and started walking and was perfectly fine other than the fact that she was panting. So my parents called the vet and he said that they would have to take her in for an emergency visit at 8 a.m. After that they told me to go back to bed but the vet had said that the seizures could be 2 or 3 hours apart or they could come in clusters and yeah.

So I went back to bed in the sense that i closed my eyes and rested but didn't actually go to sleep. I was worried about her. At five a.m, my fears were right because she had another but it was shorter and she came to right away.

Only minutes after the second seizure she had a third. It started with her mouth and moved the whole way down her body and she was crying and whining and it was horrible and scary.

I have been texting my mom, and yes i am in school and i am admitting to texting during school, all you goody two shoes out there can just shove it. I have had that dog since i was four, i named her. I love her so much. If i lost my dog, it would be just like losing my sister or my brother, that's how much of an impact she has on my family. anyway, as I was saying, i was texting my mom and she says that Jewel stopped panting and hasn't had a seizure since the one at six this morning and the animal clinic in palmyra, they are keeping her to find out what exactly is going wrong.

I hate this, i hate this, you're not the one i believe in...with god as my witness! (Please read)

(I know i said there wouldn't be a third rant but i have had a bad day ALRIGHT?)
Oh my god, I am so so so so so tired. I am not having a good day. I woke up late this morning, my coverup bottle had burst over all my other make-up for musical. Then I couldn't get the box of chocolate doughnuts open and trust me on a day where i have had little sleep the night before because Chelsea texted me at 4 a.m to tell me that her sister's water broke, i will NOT be a happy camper unless I get, what were the words I used this morning, unless i get my godd*** F***ing chocolate doughnuts. I finally took the box and smacked the side of it on the table and that's how i got my doughnuts. And then I got to school and nothing bugged me for awhile until I started to do my boyfriend's hair for the muscial and Anna was standing beside me and Brendon doesn't like alot of gel in his hair so i was trying to put as little as i could and she was standing there and was repeatedly saying "Well, you need more gel." "you aren't going to get it to stay unless you put more gel in." "You need alot more gel than that." Until finally I was like "Do you want to do his hair?" and then she took the hint and left me alone and my boyfriend of course had to fuss at me like he is my mother which pissed me off more but we were in front of people so i didn't go off on him I took a deep breath and decided "whatever". I went and apologized to anna because i hadn't meant to go off on her but i was tired and i was already on a short fuse. Then I was good until I noticed mel was following Eryn around like a lost puppy and sitting in my chair beside Erin in the band room, normally I wouldn't care if she wasn't already being a b**** to me so I seriously wanted to pounce on her and beat the crap out of her but seriously guys i have got to be the saint of patience because I just walked away despite how much I wanted to punch her.

So far nothing else has irritated me (KNOCK ON WOOD) but yea, i expect something else will by the end of the day.

Thanks for having the patience to read this post

Song Lyrics:
"Caught Myself" by Paramore

Fly, dove! Sing, sparrow! Gimme fat boy's famous arrow.

I love that song, that one, "How the other half lives" and "forget about the boy" are my favorites.


So once again, I have to say, I love people who are over dramatic, especially people who do it to just get attention.

So, here's the story, Amanda, Eryn and I were all in the chorus room and Amanda was talking about how she loves the song "Long as I'm here with you" and we got on the topic of how when Amanda was tapping her foot to the beat of the music, Mel came back and said "Would you please stop tapping? thank you." And Mel was in the room (We didn't know it, I swear) and she was like "Well, sorry but it was annoying."

So seriously this chick is a freaking freshman and she needs to realize who the Eff she is starting crap with before she picks a battle. Amanda is a senior and I am a junior. She is a freshmeat freshmen.

SO then I said that she was also the one who was rude to me backstage during nuttycracker suite. I was on stage technically and me and Amanda hadn't said a single word until i WHISPERED "When's lunch?" and Amanda answered back at a WHISPER "about noon." and then Mel leans over and "Shhh"s us really obnoxiously and even more loudly than our whispers. So I decided to defend amanda by retorting to Mel with that and she like flipped crap and said "THIS IS WHY I'M SO GLAD I'M MOVING BECAUSE EVERYONE IN THIS F***ing school hates me!" and stormed out of the room.

and Regan was like "whoooooaaaa miss dramatic, take a chill pill."

I now officially approve of Regan.

So yeah, seriously. Oh and then amanda felt bad, because amanda is such a sweetheart so she went to talk to Mel and Mel told her "I WASN'T F***ING YELLING AT YOU." and stomped away when amanda was trying to apologize.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW


HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYY CRAP.

Well, I ranted for two blogs in a row and now I feel alot better, i promise that next blog won't be a rant. Promise.

So sick of love songs, so done with wishing you were still here

Yea, what I'm really so sick of is drama and how some people can't seem to resist it. Have you ever known someone who when given any chance, makes a HUGE scene out of something really little? Well, I have, I know a couple of people like that.

Oh, you want to know what I also love? I love it when people talk big of themselves to other people like, "Oh yea? Well, I'm totally going to get all up in her face tomorrow!" and in reality they are actually absolute cowards and don't even show up to school the next day. Ha ha, oh yea, you're tough.

I'm not the kind of person who would physically confront anybody. Actually I have had someone get in my face all up in my face and spit on me and I still resisted the urge to slap said girl across the face.

Seriously people, all of you should take a chill pill. Breathe in, breathe out and repeat after me, "Cookie, cookie, cookie, cookie, cookie, cookie."

Yes it can be done.

This may be shocking to some of you


Some of you may even cry

Some of you might get so excited you'll pee your pants.

But here it is.

LOLdogs, LOLcats, LOLhamsters and LOLbunnies all in one convienent package




Mwhahahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha

LOL hamsters, its amazing the crap you can find on the internet

Yes, so I was just sitting here thinking, if there is an LOL cats and an LOL dogs, there's gotta be an LOL hamsters. I bet there is an LOL anything. My next search will be for LOL bunnies

My future dogs

My future Poodle

My Future Pug

My Future Pomeranian

My future Sheltie

My future Maltese

The future of Erin Howie

Odds are I really won't turn out the way that i forsee myself turning out. So, you can completely disregard this post. I see myself majoring in Journalism or some type of education at either Bloomsburg University or at UNCC or Southeastern University. I, then foresee myself getting a job that pays well (dream on) have between three and four kids and have exactly five dogs. A pomeranian, a pug, a maltese, a sheltie and a poodle. :) That's my future (i needed something to blog about)


Oh AND I WILL BECOME A FAMOUS AUTHOR


HA!


Take that you mean people of America!



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Awwwwwwwww

ISN'T HE CUTE