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I feel really special now. So, you know that thing we were doing for the careers? It actually helped me out. I'm going to go to school to be a social worker. Once upon a time, that's what I said I wanted to be but somehow I strayed. I went from that to translator because I can pick up any language you throw at me super quick. Then it went to journalism but as I have said multiple times, that's a dog eat dog industry where you start from the bottom and may never get to the top. I know I'm a good writer but it's only when i'm writing something that I want to write. So I don't think I'd make it in that industry. I can't sing very well. So no career as a singer. I'm planning on getting published, I'm actually in the midst of getting published. But anyway, I was going to be a teacher but i'd rather kill kids than teach them anything.

So yeah. :)

Cinderella, are you really that happy?

I am super tired of being unhappy and I know people are super tired of me being unhappy. So this post will be something to make us all smile. This will be the quotes of Erin Howie that no one will ever let me live down after they have read them. (by the way, I already know I am pretty much HORRIBLE at your mom jokes and I know that i use them as a comeback to everything...and I know it annoys people....I can't help myself)

Me: *as if surprised* "Oh my GOD! You sneezed out your nose?!"
That one Amanda said she's going to remember until we're old cracks racing through the hallway on our scooters.

Me: *talking about marching band* I'mma own that field, son.

Me:*still talking about band* I'll excel at clarinet because its what i do, son.

(we'll make all friends nameless because I know people sometimes hide their faces when they are with me so its ok. THAT was a joke but regardless.)



Friend: You're an idiot
Me: So is your mom.

Me: Oh yeah? well that's not what your mom said last night!


Ok, all your mom jokes aside, lets have some marching band quotes.

Me: Oh, shut up, you know you want me.

Emily: What's that white crap on your arm?
Me: You mean you don't remember?

Me: Its alright, nobody can keep their pants on around me.

Christy's boyfriend: do i need to take my belt off?
Coral: You're right Erin, nobody can keep their pants on around you.
Me: I told you.

Me: *with about seven raincoats on and packed down with bags and purses and blankets* and this is what they call a PACK MULE

Mrs.Harris: Why aren't you allowed to sit with them?
Me: because I hate people

Me: Coral, I love you.
Coral: I hate you too.

Rachel: Did you just butt rape me?
Sworley: Congratulations, you liked it.

Chelsea: Midgets Erin! They're just like you!

Me: *out of breath* did we seriously just get in a fight over a leaf?
Coral: I think so yeah.

Wiley: Oh yeah? Well your mom sucks.
Heather: Obviously...I'm here remember?

Me: *stares blankly ahead for about five minutes* What are we doing again?

Brendon and Erin Quotes

Brendon: Babe, you have nothing to be sorry for. I love you, my nigga.

Me: Yes
Brendon: No
Me: Yes
Brendon: No
Me: No more kisses ever
Brendon: Fiiiiiiiiiiiiiine. You win

Me: I'll beat you up.
Brendon: You can't.
Me: Yeah I can, I'm big and strong.
Brendon: *flicks me*
Me: OW! You jerk.

Brendon: It looks like you've got a big c*ck in your mouth
Erin: Well then we know it ain't yours.

Erin: I love you.
Brendon: I love you too sugarpie.



There alot better ones, but they are really bad, if you know me...you know why.



Doesn't that picture rock? Did you just spit your drink all over the screen? Its ok. Everyone on myspace peed their pants when they saw it....peed their pants laughing.


So, what's the most memorable thing I have ever said to you? Feel free to submit more than one quote.

I think I might as well just give up...

Most of my world is crashing down around me and there is nothing I can do to stop it. I tried to hold it up. I tried not to crack but now I'm just being pinned against the ground by my own emotions. Yeah, it sucks. Boyfriend trouble. Family trouble, people who aren't really friends pretending to be friends. I'm just done.

I'm done with the pain. I can't take these tears. I am just done. I'm going to slowly strip away everything that is bothering me one by one. I might have to get rid of some friends and burn a few family bridges. As for the boyfriend, I don't know what I'm going to do with that. We need to talk, no, I need to talk and he needs to listen to me, just for once. We need to reevaluate whether or not we are really getting anywhere. I need to know that he's with me because he loves me, not just because he can't find a good enough reason to break up with me.

SINEP YLOH

Read it backwards. That's how I'm feeling. Have you ever wanted to smash someone's face in? Well, I do right now. I hate drama. For once my kitty at the top of my page actually describes my feelings. I HATE EVERYTHING.

I hope everything falls off a cliff, gets peed on by wild coyotees and vultars come and eat its entrails.

I'm so tired of drama. I'm going to build a school where there can be no drama. If a student starts drama, we'll take them to the basement and beat them. Yup.

I am in a bad mood. Really bad mood. Pretty much anything could set me off right now. If I just quit trying and quit caring about anything maybe people would just leave me alone. I wish I could just crawl into a hole and disappear. Or just disappear into thin air. Be gone, where nobody could hurt me and nobody could bother me. and nobody could make me into the bad guy and turn the whole d@mn school against me.

Have you ever felt like

If you just stopped trying and stopped feeling then you'd be alot happier? I do right now. I am tired of people acting like I'm untrustworthy. I'm tired of my stupid boyfriend treating me like crap for no apparent reason. I am tired of having to deal with knowing this that and the other thing. I am tired of my dad's stupid jokes. I am tired of caring. I'm tired of emotions. I'm tired of every thing. EVERY LITTLE STUPID THING. I'm tired of parents pressuring you. I'm tired of people telling me they care and then saying mean things about me that hurt. I'm tired of apologies. I'm tired of apologizing. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of not understanding chemistry. I'm tired of pictures. I'm tired of myspace. I'm tired of chorus. I'm tired of Mrs.Masser being grumpy because she didn't drink her coffee. I'm tired of homework. I'm tired of schoolwork. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of home. I'm tired of my car being a piece of junk. I'm tired of people making promises they don't keep. I'm tired of not being called when people say they'll call. I'm tired of not having clean white socks. I'm tired of idiots. I'm tired of smug people. I'm tired of smart @$$es. I'm tired of Trigonometry. I'm tired of the SAT registration. I'm tired of college searches. I'm tired of not ever having money. I'm tired of friends keeping secrets about friends from friends. I'm tired of emos. I'm tired of dirtys. I'm tired of EVERYTHING.

Its been one of those days.

Mirror, Mirror, have I got it?

This is pretty much the best Cinquain I have ever written. If you don't understand why its so short, go online and research cinquain's you dumb @$$. But yeah, here's my cinquain:

Mirror
Misleading Glass
Lying, Defining, Hurt
Reflection chasing away beauty
Mirror


I dedicate it to any girl who's ever been told by someone that they aren't perfect or that you are ugly. I dedicate it to any girl who has looked in the mirror and hated what looked back at her.

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now. I know this is the part where the end starts.

Everything in my head is so confused. There is alot that I have to think about and I'm not good at figuring out things. I'm better at being confused. There's only one thing I'm sure about in the whole situation: I love Brendon. Sure, he ticks me off sometimes. I tick him off too. But fights and distance have never kept us apart. I love him. I fall deeper everytime I look into his eyes.

And he knows about the situation, and I know it hurt him at first. He knew better than to get worried but he thought that he actually wasn't showing me that he loved me enough. I got about twenty "I love you"s before I was allowed to hang up the phone. But we adjusted and now...note number two...and I don't know what to do. Hey that rhymed I'm a poet and I didn't even know it! HEHEHEHEHHEHEHHEHE Ok,....serious Erin again.

But yeah, so note number two. I don't understand. You cannot fall in love that quickly. It takes time. It always takes time...but I guess I'm wrong about that. I just...I don't know.

And how are (you know who you are) you going to lose me? I'm not going anywhere.

One thing did upset me. If you honestly care about my happiness then you wouldn't be saying "I hope her boyfriend breaks her heart". What is that? That isn't caring about my happiness...that's either just jealousy or your way of punishing me for not choosing you, which is wrong and you know it, I know you do.

I just, I have a crapload to think about. And I admit it, yeah, I'm confused, sometimes I'm upset. But I'm okay. I don't know whether or not I'm supposed to feel like the bad guy here or the victim or the innocent bystander or...or...WHAT for the love of god???????????

Sorry. I'm so sorry