Thursday, May 14, 2009

Another Clever Word Sets Off Unsuspecting Hurt.

Sometimes I seriously just wonder what happened to us. Where did I go wrong by you? Huh? I never did anything wrong to you. I was there for you through it all, and once upon a time you came to me when you got hurt. I never gave you a reason not to trust me. Assuming how I'd react just proves that my own 'friend' knows nothing about me. It also makes an @$$ out of you and me. Once upon a time, you were my friend. I don't know what you are any more but its not a friend. I don't know what you are and I don't know why I still feel so attached to you, my 'sometimes friend'. I'm done with letting people in so easily. I'm done with being so open. Everytime I let someone knew in, I'm giving someone else a way to hurt me because I'm so quick to become friends with people. I'm shutting down, dropping walls that had never been there before because even after the tons and tons of crap that I have put up with in my life that I wouldn't even tell YOU...I left myself so open. Left my heart on my sleeve. And all its done there is bleed. I was told if you are like that, no one would ever hurt you, you'd be protected...I was so misled. So we can officially call the walls closed. I'm done with being hurt by people who told me they'd always be here for me. I'm tired of being repeatedly kicked when I'm already down on the ground. Have you any idea what you're doing to me? No, you don't because you don't take the time out of your 'busy' life to pretend to care just for a little while. I'm tired of kissing up to everyone after a fight that wasn't my fault in the first place. I'm not doing it anymore. Leave...I don't care anymore because you obviously don't.

If you have no idea where this is spawning from, its not about you.

4 comments:

personality: unique said...

Yeah. No idea. Good luck with whatever is going on!

B.D.C said...

Wow...

So, yeah... I have no idea where that's coming from... If you need to talk to anybody, I'm here for you.

Nick said...

AS I read that it almost seemed poetic for some odd reason. Must be my brain.

Erin said...

Its probably because of the fact that I'm writer and I unitentionally sound poetic at times when I'm being super emotional. I don't know. It was a theory