Friday, May 8, 2009

FML

That's really all I have to say. I have so many feelings right now, confusion, hurt, anger, depression...I can't handle that many emotions at once. It makes me crazy. On top of the whole stupid thing with my stupid boyfriend. I have a crappy home life right now and I just CAN'T do this anymore. I can't! I can't! I can't! I can't! I can't! I can't!

I want to take a break, because by taking a break I think he'll realize how much he actually needs me. He freaks out when I even mention taking a break, so if we were to actually take one, if he's sincere, and he really actually loves me, he'll be a mess. I think he needs the break to find out he needs me more than he's letting on. I'm just afraid that if we do, he's going to realize the opposite....that he doesn't need me.

Ugh, it all depends on how prom goes tonight. Hopefully, it goes well, we realize that we can't be without each other and it all falls back into place. But if not, we'll take a break, see where things go from there. I hate this.

I hate this


I hate this

14 comments:

personality: unique said...

:( I'm sorry. Guys are idiots!

Erin said...

NO GUYS ARE FU*KTARDS

personality: unique said...

Now Erin! You really should start watching your language, missy.

Erin said...

Haha, it had the * there, so TECHNICALLY, I didn't swear.

personality: unique said...

But you had the intent behind it. I cant tell that's what you meant.

Erin said...

I hate them. Just because they have d!cks doesn't mean they have the right to be d!cks. AND you know what some of them don't even have big ones, they have small little tic tacs as excuses for a male reproductive organ and they still act like they are tough crap, well GUESS what THEY AREN'T

personality: unique said...

... No comment.

Erin said...

How am I supposed to respond to that? I'm sorry Amanda we'll stop talking about the size of male reproductive organs.








So, how was it yesterday at Six Flags............skank?

personality: unique said...

It was awesome!! I had so much fun because I finally went on a rollercoaster!! I think my favorite was Superman.
















................ Tard.

Erin said...

Tard? Seriously? Are we in sixth grade? Is that the worst you can do? Well you know what Amanda, you're a POOPIEHEAD.

Haha beat that one


OMG is that the one where you're lying down???????

personality: unique said...

Yeah. I was stupid and didn't think of this before I got on it. I'm not so good with hieghts. So, when we got out of the station and all of the sudden there is nothing below us for like three stories, I started flipping out. And of course you're looking down the whole time. :( But, I actually liked it once I got over the 'Holy crap I'm going to DIE' stage.















......... ??? PITA!

Erin said...

I can't believe I didn't know what that meant

B.D.C said...

I hope everything works out for the better.

And not all guys are fu*ktards. Some of us are decent, caring individuals... It just takes a while to find us.

Nick said...

I fully agree with Ben. We aren't living breathing examples of this utterly rare phenomena. That was kind of redundant wasn't it? Anyway, keep an eye out for guys like us. We're cool.

I think my captcha describes me well.

It's "uncer" as in the onomatopoeia one makes when emulating trance techno tracks